it truly heart breaking…caring about someone who doesnt care about themselves.
its like watching someone drown and not doing anything about it…
but the thing is i cant do anything about it…
i feel helpless.
beyond helpless.
i need to focus on myself and i cant because i dont know how to.
i dont know where to begin.
im miserable without him and miserable thinking about him.
im heart broken that he wont even do this one thing for me if he wont even do it for himself.
the fucked up thing is the best thing he probably ever did for me and to me was break up with me.
why do i attract these people?
why do i end up in these toxic relationships?
i dont know how to get out of this cycle…i thought that he was out of this cycle…and i was so fucking wrong.
sometimes i wish people came with a warning lable.
i dont know where that guy i met 8 months ago went but he was someone i had never met before…and someone i never wanted to let go of.
